I’m a natural giver and feel guilty receiving pleasure. While there’s no denying a blowjob feels absolutely amazing, I do always feel a huge twinge of guilt afterwards. It’s the same way I hate going to a masseuse and feel uncomfortable at fancy restaurants. Receiving pleasure or comfort selfishly makes me really uncomfortable. Strangely enough, giving her oral until she orgasms before bed without expecting a return favor makes me feel many of these feelings.

Oh, and yeah. I haven’t been complimented in months or even a year+.